Ok, I love my layout. But I can make much better ones. I need to make one of those talented ones that I used to make. I will do that after Christmas. But before school starts back up.
I planed on giving Jayme his present and a letter today. I was going to leave it in my truck at work and let him get it. But nooo. Daddy felt the need to keep my truck today and change the oil in it. Maybe I will be able to do it Tuesday or something. I’d say Monday but that’s Christmas and I’m sure he has something else to do. Besides…I don’t want to give him that letter on Christmas. It’s not something anyone would want to get on Christmas.
I don’t want to lie anymore. I still want to be with Jayme but I don’t see how I can. I understand my parents, I really do. I hate lieing to them. So I’m not going to. I’m just going to have to stop seeing Jayme. I know they are right. He isn’t good for me. I just hate that because I love him. I don’t know how I’m going to tell him this. I swear it is going to be the hardest thing I have ever done. But it will be for the best, I guess.
Right now I am pretty much grounded untill they can trust me again. Moma is saying maybe by summer considering everything goes alright and I’m not lieing.
I think I knew that this was going to end sometime. Well, knew recently. Not at first. I thought we would be together forever. But now I know that can’t happen. The only reason I’m lieing to my parents all the time is because of Jayme.
I still want to give him his Christmas present. I got him a really nice watch. I want him to have it.
Anyways, I added some poems and an about me section last night. O and the contact me part. None of the other pages are up yet though. I hope to have them up soon though.
Well, I finaly found someone to host me. She is great. Deanna Marie. I don’t know what I would do without her.
I also have a new layout up. Very simple but I love it. This is one of my favorite movies and my favorite sceen out of the movie. 
I have been off from work sence Tuesday. Oddly I havn’t gone insane yet! lol. I went shoping Tuesday, Cleaned my room Wednesday, and did a little more cleaning today and worked on my site. It also helps that my parents havn’t been trying to talk to me about Jayme and everything else. I guess things are finaly starting to settle down. It’s about time. But I imagin in about a month I will stur things up again. Because I’m suposed to be getting ungrounded Jan. 22nd. Then I will want to go to Branson again. I will probably wait untill a day or two after that…but still. This will all come up again soon. Oh well, I will deal with it when it gets here.
Alrighty, at some point I will actually have a little something about me in here, untill then, this is all ya get. :P Sorry. O and there will be a picture too. For now I'm going to work on this layout. It's almost done. :)
