Alright, so I have become one of those girls that I never wanted to be. Not completly. But kinda.
Anyways, I have a boyfriend. (You see? One of those girls. The ones that always seem to have a boyfriend.) It’s Ethan. Yeah, I have liked Ethan for a while. Now that I think of it I remember kinda likeing him when I was with Brad, or after I was with Brad. 
Anyways, he asked me out lastnight. I called him and someone finaly answered. I swear, the phone is always either bussy or no one will answer. He also isn’t allowed to be one the phone after 9, but he should be getting another cellphone this weekend. Then he will just be texting me all the time.
That reminds me that I need to get my plan upgraded so I have more text messeges on my phone. I went way over this month. I just can’t wait till Moma and Daddy see the bill. Stupid Cingular dosn’t have unlimited texting. The most you can get is 3,000. So I guess that’s what I’m going to have to get. I’d rather have unlimited though.
Anyways, I guess I will go. I’m actualy at school right now. I might write more later. 
Finaly. lol. I have been wanting to blog for the past few days but I havn’t had time. I could have when I was at school or at Leah’s but I forgot my password. My computer just remembers it so I forgot what it was. So I just changed it. lol. 
I still have no idea what it was. Oh well. I know I won’t forget this one.
So, remember that boyfriend? Well he broke up with me. I understand why. The only reason I’m really mad at him is because he didn’t have the balls to break up with me himself. I hate it when guys do that. Get their best friends to do it for them. The thing is, this time, the firend that did it for him, I like. And I’m pretty sure he likes me. Mainly because when I was still with Michael he said that Ethan (his friend) wanted to ask me out but was afraid that I didn’t like him. I just don’t understand why he would think that. I thought it was pretty obvious. But whatever. Guys are just strange sometimes.
O my gosh. There is a shirt at WalMart that I want. 
It says ‘How to drop a boyfriend.’ The first image shows a guy and girl stick figuar, the next one shows the girl punching the guy. lol. I love it! The only problem is that it’s pink. Well, the shirt is black but the image is pink. Now they are out of my size though. I might try to find one online, that isn’t pink.
Ok, so this one little thing that happend to me today is not going to get me down. I will not let it! I am stubborn and hard headed and I will not let it! It just ain’t gonna happen! So now let me explain.
Leah called me today and told me that Jayme’s grandma called her. I think he is going to just be on probation. But anyways, she was wanting to know if I was still going to wait for him. Or something like that. She said that Jayme is wanting to join the army. He talked about this before…but now he wants to join just so he can die! Now I don’t know if it was just Leah that worded it like that or if Jayme’s grandma did or if she just made it sound like that. But I could see him thinking that. I hate this. I will always love him. But I just can’t be with him. And Leah, I know you will read this, just please don’t ask me anymore or try to get me to explain. I just can’t do it. I just can’t be with him. Not right now.
Why is it that I can’t stay happy? As soon as something good happens something else has to happen to make it all bad again. Ok, so it’s not all bad. I just can’t help thinking that if he does join the army it’s my fault. In some way anyways.
I’m just going to try not to think about it too much. I’m going to just go on. I’m happy with Michael. I just want to be happy! Let me be happy!
Alrighty, at some point I will actually have a little something about me in here, untill then, this is all ya get. :P Sorry. O and there will be a picture too. For now I'm going to work on this layout. It's almost done. :)
