Where to start. I guess I will start with what I was thinking about. That is the reason I’m writing this blog.
Well, I was thinking about the year. Last year. I think it’s really amazing how far I have come in one year. Because this time last year I had no idea that I would be where I am. I mean, I’m 17 and in college! :shocked: Things just happend so fast. One day I was doing school work, the next I was taking a class to get my GED! How crazy is that? The next thing I know, I’ve passed my GED (with pretty good scores I might add) and graduating! Then all of a sudden Leah, her mom, and my mom are all talking about starting college in the fall. lol. It’s all just crazy.
All those migrains I had in the spring/summer are starting to make sence now. lol. 
But it wasn’t only college that did that. I also started my first real job in the spring. Yeah, I have been babysitting for quite a while, but this was totaly diffirent.
It’s all great now. I love school and work. I actualy look foward to both. (Unless I’m schedualed for the morning shift at work. lol)
Anyways, back to ‘07. 
I have a boyfriend. Yeah, totaly crazy. And compleatly weird how it happend. lol. (I’d go into details but I don’t want to bore you.) Basicly, Michael asked me out and I thought he was joking. I mean, his friend just looked at him and told him to ask me out, then he looked at me and asked. Hello! Who does that? So me being stupid and crazy said Yeah! Sure!. lol. I was being sarcastic! I mean, we had all been joking around and laughing the whole time. Anyways, he was serious. It’s all ok though. Becuase I actualy like him and he seems to really like me. The great thing is, I havn’t been thinking about Jayme. Well, I guess I have a little, but I don’t feel bad about all this. Ya know? I’m feeling really good about all of it. About everything going on right now. School, work, guys. I’m really happy. 
But anyways, I’m gonna go to bed. I will return comments tomorrow. <3 Love you guys!!
I think I finaly feel like I’m in school again. Maybe. Because I had a real full day yesterday. lol. Tomorrow I will somewhat. Seeing as how I only really have one class on Fridays, it’s kinda weird this semester. But tomorrow I’m going to 3 classes because I told some people in my computer classes that I would help them with a few things. And there is one guy that thinks we should ‘bond’. It’s kinda weird. Because I only see him twice a week for about an hour. :/ But he says I’m his new buddy because I know a lot about websites; because I have my own site; because I know html and all that good stuff. I kinda like being the only one in my class that knows this much about websites and graphics, other than my teacher.
I think I might go crazy before Saturday. It’s weird having 4 days in a row off from work. I miss my people at work. Even when I go back it will be weird because I’m working mornings instead of nights. I can’t wait untill the winter season is over. I want to go back to my normal schedual. 
I have been messing around with Adobe Illustrator. I made a kinda cool desktop. It’s verry plain, but I like it. I think I might go try to make a layout now. I don’t know.
Oh hey, I added more poems the other day. Check them out if you have time. Tell me what you think.
//Edit The poems are not new. They are from 04 and 05. I just finaly added them to the site. 
I’m in a depressing mood. I’m not really sure why. There isn’t any reason to be. Well, I guess maybe a little. But not really. Maybe it’s just because I feel kinda sick. :/ Who knows.
I keep thinking ‘I wanna go home.’ But I’m at home.
For some reason I feel lost. I mean, I know where I am, but it just dosn’t feel right. I feel alone. There are a few people I could talk to right now. But, I don’t want to. I want to be with somebody. Not just talk on the phone. I hate talking on the phone. But I’m grounded. I can’t leave the house. Not without a family member anyways. Unless I’m going to school. That is the only time I’m free anymore. I can’t even go to church without taking my brother with me.
I wish my parents could see that I’m not going to try to see him. I still love him. Everyone can tell. But it will kill me if I go see him. I wouldn’t even be able to talk to him. I’m trying to move on with my life. But it’s just kinda hard to some days.
Have you ever been scared of someone? I mean really actualy scared. Just knowing that they could hurt you. Or take advantage of you. Knowing that if they wanted to they could do what ever they wanted to you. It’s scary. Have you ever felt like that? I know. You always hear that if you ever feel like that you should tell someone. But how many people really do?
I want to run away. Just for the fun of it. I’d come back. But right now I don’t want to be in this house. I wish I could go outside. I wish it was nice out there. But it’s 17 degrees out there. I hate the cold.
The cold just cuts into you like a knife. But the blood dosn’t come because it’s frozen there inside you. Posining every inch of you body. Slowly. Killing.
It is now a new day. No one called me yesterday. No one cared to talk to me. Not anyone that I actualy wanted to hear from anyways. I thought they cared.
I probably shouldn’t write when I feel like this. Maybe I just shouldn’t write when I’m really emotional. Maybe that’s it. Maybe I shouldn’t write at all. I probably scare people. But you don’t have to read it if you don’t want to. But if you want something a little happier then read the post below.
Alrighty, at some point I will actually have a little something about me in here, untill then, this is all ya get. :P Sorry. O and there will be a picture too. For now I'm going to work on this layout. It's almost done. :)
