I love him.There is no doubt about it. Call me crazy if you want, maybe I am. But I love him. The problem is..that scares me. Which possibly sounds even crazier. How or why does that scare me? Well…Good things don’t last, not for me anyways. They never seem to. I am so happy with him. I feel like a little kid, because only little kids seem to truly be this happy. It scares the hell out of me! Another thing that’s crazy, it’s only been two weeks. Yes, it feels like it has been a lot longer, but it really hasn’t.
Ok, so I don’t think I’m crazy. It still scares me though. I don’t think he is crazy either. Even though I tell him that he is because he calls me beautiful. I guess his eyes just aren’t working right. lol.
He keeps thinking I’m going to break up with him. Mainly because of things he used to do. Like I told him tonight, everyone has done stupid things in their past, but it’s in the past. I love him for who he is, not who he was.
I should probably go to sleep. I keep staring at the screen and there aren’t any amazing words coming to mind (but then again, I haven’t written anything amazing before, why start now?).
Ya know, maybe those good things in the past wern’t really actually good things. Maybe I just thought they were, but they wern’t and that’s why they ended. Maybe this is the actual good thing. Maybe this will last. Not maybe. It will.
There we go…not so scared anymore. Those were the amazing words I was looking for. Ok, maybe they aren’t amazing..but I think they are pretty good. If it can keep me from being afraid of the future…then it’s got to be good.
Now I’m going to bed.
Awww Becca, I know how you feel. It’s scary to put yourself out there like that and risk getting hurt. But maybe this guy is worth the risk. I think it’s better than having regrets later on and wondering “what if?” xxx
i love you too gorgeous. i’m so inlove with you that i can’t do anything but think of you. i’m gonna keep you around FOREVER. i want to hold you now and forever. and i’m going too!!!
and i think your words are always amazing because their your’s. goodnight beautiful
sleep sweet
Alrighty, at some point I will actually have a little something about me in here, untill then, this is all ya get. :P Sorry. O and there will be a picture too. For now I'm going to work on this layout. It's almost done. :)
