So I think things are getting better. I think. I hope. 
I’m not really sure. The three of us need to just sit down and talk. Because this is seriously driving me crazy. I didn’t really like it too much when Leah and Cory were hanging out all the time, but I dislike this even more.
Anyways..That job at the vacation channel is sounding pretty promising. I had an unofficial interview Monday. They said that they would try to contact that afternoon, but they didn’t. So I am going to call them today to see if they have talked about it anymore. If I do get the job I wouldn’t be working on the websites right away. I would be the secretary. But that’s not really that bad. At least I will have my foot in the door, they will be able to get to know me better and they will know that I can work on the websites. Also, they will be able to work with my school schedule. I will be having classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays. That’s the plan anyways, and that’s what I told them…so that’s kinda what I will have to do if I get the job.
Speaking of school. I’m kinda mad at myself. I should have gotten around to getting my classes sooner. Now there is at least one class that I know I can’t get because they are all full. 
It’s photography. I was really wanting to take Photoshop and photography classes together that way I could combine my final projects like I did last semester. It makes things a little less stressful. And that’s always a good thing.
I really need to update the site. I’ve been neglecting it. I don’t really know why either. It’s not like I don’t have time to do it right now. I guess I’m just being lazy.
I kinda want school to start back up. I really wish I had a job. While I like not having to do anything…I’m becoming lazy, and I don’t like it. I haven’t even really been cleaning the house. I sweep every now and then, but that’s only because I don’t like the dirt sticking to my feet and I refuse to wear shoes in the house. lol. I just don’t like wearing shoes. I have gotten more cuts on my feet this summer than I ever have. :fainted: It would probably help if I would pick up the glass that’s in the yard…but there’s just so many little pieces.
Anyways…I’m gonna go. 
I could tell things were changing. Right after I met Cory I could tell things were going to be changing in a big way. Yeah…change is good, things can’t always stay the same…even if we want them to. I could tell it was going to be a good change….but in the back of my mind I had a feeling that something bad would probably be comming with it.
The good: Cory
The bad: Well…not bad.
Leah joined the National Guard. And what little time she has left here with us is being majorly screwed up. I don’t know how to fix it. I can’t stand that I can’t talk to her right now. I also can’t stand that she thinks Cory is going to be just another guy. (read her last blog…if you can understand it.)
I don’t know how to fix things. Not this. I just don’t know what to do. Cory aoligzed, Leah apoligzed, I compleatly blame myself, Cory blames himself. What the hell am I suposed to do?!
So, last night we tryed to go skating with some of my friends. (me, cory, leah, hannah, kareen, jay, and ben) We took two cars to Branson. One car had me, Cory, Ben, and Kareen. Leah, Hannah and Jay were in the other. The ride up there was fine. We decided to go eat at Taco Bell. One group sat on one side and one on the other. A little bit after everyone was sat down I realized that we were split up still. When we got to the skating rink it was closed so we decided (after a little bit…no one was arguing but atleast two of us had an attitude about it) to go bowling. Right before we got there Cory said that he wasn’t going to bowl with her and her attitude. We sat there for a little while trying to decide what we were going to do, Cory yelled at me (he apollagized), Leah didn’t say a word to me without an attitude (but what does that matter…I don’t remember the last time she spoke to me without an attitude), finally we just went home. Anyways… The point is we can’t even have any fun together anymore. Not with all my friends together. I can vaugly remember when we used to be able to do that.
I feel bad though. Jay skiped some ball game to go with us, Kareen would have had more fun just sitting at my house, Ben also would have had more fun at home, Hannah is on vacation and just trying to spend some time with her friends before she has to go back home.
And by the way Leah.. I do realize that by moving in with Cory means that we wont be moving in together. But do you realize that when I turn 18 you wont be here…you wont even be here when you turn 18. Everyones life here isn’t going to stop when you leave. I love you to death hun, I always will. But I hate the way things are right now.
And another thing…You are worried about Cory hurting me when you are the one still talking to the guy that has hurt you atleast twice. Don’t worry so much about the mistakes I may or may not be making when you have enough of your own to worry about.
Wow. It’s been too long sense I have blogged. It’s been too long sense we have all blogged…oh well. It just shows that maybe we have somewhat of a life. :/ But then again I haven’t really been doing anything lately. I really need to find a job..I’m just too picky I guess. I know where I want to work but I’m afraid that they won’t want to hire me. It’s at the Vacation Channel, working on their websites. But I’m only 17 and have no previous work experience in that. Yes, I have been making websites sense I was 12, but that’s not the same.
I think Leah might be mad at me or something. She is starting to get in one of those moods again where everything pisses her off. But I think she might be mad at me for something. I just don’t really know what.
Ya know what’s great? My boyfriend is irritated by my best friend, and my best friend is irritated by my boyfriend. Why can’t everyone just get along?!
Alrighty, at some point I will actually have a little something about me in here, untill then, this is all ya get. :P Sorry. O and there will be a picture too. For now I'm going to work on this layout. It's almost done. :)
