Clean Your Room
December 25, 2007 at 11:47 pm in Everyday Life, My Love, Thoughtful | 3 Comments
Sitting here looking at my room, I realize something. It’s time to grow up. I need to get rid of all those childish things from the past. I don’t do anything with them anymore. I shouldn’t have to be told to clean up my room. I know it’s a chaotic mess that drives me insane…but I don’t clean it. Why? Because there is too much stuff in it. So much stuff from when I was younger, so much stuff that won’t go with me when I move. What’s the point of keeping it? I don’t know. Half the stuff I don’t even see anymore because of the other stuff that’s on top of it.
Go home and clean your room, he says. He talks to me like I’m a child sometimes, but that’s my own fault. I still act like a child. Not all the time, I can be serious. But life is no fun when you are serious all the time.
I’m getting married in May (we decided that today). (That rhymed. 
) That means it’s time to grow up…doesn’t it? I can’t hide things, I can’t bottle them up. I’m still not really used to that. But he can always tell. Worried, mad, sick, hurt. He always knows. I hate it and love it at the same time.
I want to get away from here. One of these days we will. I know he does. This place is holding us both down. Not until next fall though. School has me tied here. I’d say that my job does too, but honestly…I would be just fine without that job. I know now that I can really do what I want to do. For some reason I just can’t talk to them. I’m going to try to tomorrow though. I really really am. I might scare someone. Me demanding something is something they have never seen. But I know what I desirve, and I know that’s not what I’m getting at the moment.
Anyways…I should really go now. I still need to clean my room. I promised I’d have it done by tomorrow. That…and a few other things that aren’t done yet. Started…but not done.
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