Right now I feel like I could possibly go crazy. Actually, I fee like everything I do is mostly pointless right now. I feel like I’m not getting anything done and I also just don’t feel like doing much.
I need to get a job. But I also feel like I should promote my web design business more. If I did get a job then I wouldn’t have time to do the web design and my school work. But I have to do my school work, I’ve come too far to quit now.
If I got a job and didn’t do web design (which really isn’t a choice sense I’m in the middle of two projects right now) I don’t know that I would really have time for school work. Atleast not at the place Cory is working at. I would really like working with Cory. I feel like we don’t get enough time together any more. I’m sure he dosen’t know this, but I really enjoyed just riding around town for an hour today. Just to spend that time with him.
I guess I just feel kind of lost right now. I know what I want to do and I know what I need to do. And those just don’t match up right now.
If it makes you feel better I am kinda feeling the same way… kinda…
I basically have two choices, career wise, right now.
One, I can push and get into substitute teaching. It would definitely pay well and wouldn’t be too difficult.
Or two, I can work harder and get more into my work online… which would mean I would have to learn lots more about web design and basically just work really really hard, and it may or may not pay very well… but I think I would enjoy it more.
We’ll see what the future brings… but I suspect I’m going to focus on my online work and maybe do just a little subbing (only a day or two a week). I’ve learned enough in life that I know, it’s worthwhile to do something you love. Even if it doesn’t pay well.
If you go into the web design, definitely let us know. Maybe someday in the future, you and I will collaborate on a site. I know I’ve always got lots to learn!
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Hmmm.. that’s a difficult situation. IMHO, you should put school first. School is an investment in your future. Do you need a job because you’re not earning enough with your web design business? It takes time for businesses to start getting popular and to get more traffic. If you are really serious about continuing with it, you should focus on that.
I say, talk to Cory about it. Maybe he could help you clear your mind. Good luck with everything, hun! x
This is all a part of growing up, learning how to juggle things in something called life. It’s hard… but you just need to think it through in peace and quietness, and figure out what it is that is NEEDED first… we can always want, and ‘want’ can always happen later. If having a job is going to take away from your schooling and with the hubby, it’s not a necessary sacrifice that you ‘need’ to make. If it’s about $$ right now, maybe even a part time job will work? One that has flexibility and will not demand complete commitment.
Good luck with everything!
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It’s never easy when you’re torn between what you need to do and what you want to do. Sometimes it helps to make a list of pros and cons for both, or at least it does for me. It’s so much easier to see the good and bad aspects of both right in front of you rather than going back and forth between them in your head.
Alrighty, at some point I will actually have a little something about me in here, untill then, this is all ya get. :P Sorry. O and there will be a picture too. For now I'm going to work on this layout. It's almost done. :)
