Unwritten words are what rule her life. Things not said, things never heard.
Ya, know….I haven’t written any poetry in forever. Like over a year. What little I do come up with is just little stuff, never anything more than a line or two. I don’t even finnish my blog posts anymore. I have like three drafts in my wordpress thingy. The most I really write anymore is for school, and that’s really not much.
Why do people say that I’m pregnant just because I want pickles sometimes or because I eat peanuts in class or because I’ve been wanting bananas lately. It’s amazing how what food I eat can tell everyone that I’m preggo. It’s not like it’s weird food cravings or anything. Besides…people have no idea what else may or may not be going on with my body.
On one hand I really want to be…but on the other I know it’s not a good time for that. I would atleast want to be out of school before we have a baby. But…if I was pregnant right now…then by the time I had the baby I would be out of school.
It’s so unfair…becuas what my heart wants and what my brain says I need arn’t always the same. But then people tell you to follow your heart..or were they only talking about marriage when they said that?
Her heart and her mind
hardly ever intertwine.
Right now I feel like I could possibly go crazy. Actually, I fee like everything I do is mostly pointless right now. I feel like I’m not getting anything done and I also just don’t feel like doing much.
I need to get a job. But I also feel like I should promote my web design business more. If I did get a job then I wouldn’t have time to do the web design and my school work. But I have to do my school work, I’ve come too far to quit now.
If I got a job and didn’t do web design (which really isn’t a choice sense I’m in the middle of two projects right now) I don’t know that I would really have time for school work. Atleast not at the place Cory is working at. I would really like working with Cory. I feel like we don’t get enough time together any more. I’m sure he dosen’t know this, but I really enjoyed just riding around town for an hour today. Just to spend that time with him.
I guess I just feel kind of lost right now. I know what I want to do and I know what I need to do. And those just don’t match up right now.
Alrighty, at some point I will actually have a little something about me in here, untill then, this is all ya get. :P Sorry. O and there will be a picture too. For now I'm going to work on this layout. It's almost done. :)
