It’s finnaly Friday! lol. The week didn’t actually seem that long. Today is also a short-ish day. At 2:00 everyone is leavin to go to someones house boat. I was going to go but my back has been killing me and this is the only time I will have the time to go to the chiropractor. It would be nice to be able to go out on a house boat with everyone…but..yeah. The good thing is that sense everyone is leaving to go play on a boat we get to wear bluejeans instead of the nicer clothes we normally have to wear. 
Tomorrow night I’m going to go see the newest Harry Potter movie. I get to see it on the big Imax screen! 
hehehe. I also have the next book pre ordered. I can’t wait.
So yesterday was a very long and bad day. The lady that I usually work with (who I actually like) was out for the day. So the lady that I hardly ever really have to work with was here. She is nice..but she treats me like a little kid. She seems to think that I can’t do any of the work so she has to do it all herself. I’m sorry, but I’m not here to just sit in the corner and read my book all day. Then another lady was fussing at me for doing something that the other lady had told me to do! What the hell?! I can’t win either way. I just hope today goes a little better.
I think my parents are used to Cory being around now. Before they would ask if Cory was going somewhere with us, now they automaticly include him. 
Like the Harry Potter movie tickets. I asked Moma how many tickets we needed and she said 4 (Me, Ben, Leah, and Cory) and 2 for another movie. She is also wanting me to get tickets to a show for next week because my aunt is comming down for a visit again before school starts back up, and my mom included him in that too. 
I could tell things were changing. Right after I met Cory I could tell things were going to be changing in a big way. Yeah…change is good, things can’t always stay the same…even if we want them to. I could tell it was going to be a good change….but in the back of my mind I had a feeling that something bad would probably be comming with it.
The good: Cory
The bad: Well…not bad.
Leah joined the National Guard. And what little time she has left here with us is being majorly screwed up. I don’t know how to fix it. I can’t stand that I can’t talk to her right now. I also can’t stand that she thinks Cory is going to be just another guy. (read her last blog…if you can understand it.)
I don’t know how to fix things. Not this. I just don’t know what to do. Cory aoligzed, Leah apoligzed, I compleatly blame myself, Cory blames himself. What the hell am I suposed to do?!
So, last night we tryed to go skating with some of my friends. (me, cory, leah, hannah, kareen, jay, and ben) We took two cars to Branson. One car had me, Cory, Ben, and Kareen. Leah, Hannah and Jay were in the other. The ride up there was fine. We decided to go eat at Taco Bell. One group sat on one side and one on the other. A little bit after everyone was sat down I realized that we were split up still. When we got to the skating rink it was closed so we decided (after a little bit…no one was arguing but atleast two of us had an attitude about it) to go bowling. Right before we got there Cory said that he wasn’t going to bowl with her and her attitude. We sat there for a little while trying to decide what we were going to do, Cory yelled at me (he apollagized), Leah didn’t say a word to me without an attitude (but what does that matter…I don’t remember the last time she spoke to me without an attitude), finally we just went home. Anyways… The point is we can’t even have any fun together anymore. Not with all my friends together. I can vaugly remember when we used to be able to do that.
I feel bad though. Jay skiped some ball game to go with us, Kareen would have had more fun just sitting at my house, Ben also would have had more fun at home, Hannah is on vacation and just trying to spend some time with her friends before she has to go back home.
And by the way Leah.. I do realize that by moving in with Cory means that we wont be moving in together. But do you realize that when I turn 18 you wont be here…you wont even be here when you turn 18. Everyones life here isn’t going to stop when you leave. I love you to death hun, I always will. But I hate the way things are right now.
And another thing…You are worried about Cory hurting me when you are the one still talking to the guy that has hurt you atleast twice. Don’t worry so much about the mistakes I may or may not be making when you have enough of your own to worry about.
I don’t really know why I’m blogging. I guess I just feel like I need to. 
Well, I decided I’m not scared. It’s pretty much pointless to be. I love him. The only thing I have to be afraid of is getting hurt. I have fallen. Hard. If he breaks my heart I’ll kill him. That’s all there is to it.
Ya know what I hate? When my bestfriends dad and my own father ask me if Leah and I are sharing a boyfriend. It made me mad when Bill (Leah’s dad) asked me, but it really pissed me off when my own father asked me. He has no reason to think that! I told him that Cory was at Leah’s helping them build the house and he thinks that we are sharing a boyfriend!? What the hell?!! Is it illegal for them to be friends? It’s just stupid. Now if I didn’t trust them…then I would have a problem with them hanging out. But I trust both of them and I don’t think either of them would do anything to intentionally hurt me.
Anyways…
I just had an actual conversation with my brother. And we haven’t yelled at each other all day. Granted, I haven’t been home and he has been asleep…but still. lol.
Crap. I think my internet just got unplugged, stupid storms..
Alrighty, at some point I will actually have a little something about me in here, untill then, this is all ya get. :P Sorry. O and there will be a picture too. For now I'm going to work on this layout. It's almost done. :)
